You're Losing Yourself [Am I losing myself?]

What just happened?!? What's been happening??? I have no idea. I'll work it out in the next few days, I hope. Just everytime I look out my window and see the snow blowing I wanna cry. Not just cry. Fall down and scream until I'm carted away in an ambulence strapped down.
Is it the snow, really? I don't know.
It's stopped blowing around. I feel better with that fact.
Maybe I should just stop looking out the window... No. I need to see if the snow is blowing.
No, it doesn't make sense. It's absolutely ridiculous. But I don't care.

I just got back from Kira's house. I could've stayed. I wish I wanted to stay longer. But..I don't know what. Just this sense of misery and urgency to come back to my own bed. I'm here.

The snow is blowing again, but it's okay right now.

Yesterday I did feel pretty terrible. Very hyper. Me, Kira, and Ben went to see Adam's show. It was decent. Not nessecarilly 20$ decent, but whatever I went for free so it oh so kay.

I don't wanna be in Fiddler anymore. No real reason either. I just don't.
Just...
No real reason.